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Losing A Loved One to Suicide~

8 Apr

Loss of a loved one to suicide.

My prayers go out to Rick Warren and his family over the loss of their 27 year old son. I pray sharing this will help others who have lost a loved one to suicide. Some question rather one can be saved if one takes their own life…. 2006 was the worst pain I had ever felt.

Read More Here ☞   Losing A Loved One to Suicide~.

Losing A Loved One to Suicide~

11 Jul

Loss of a loved one to suicide.

Now Comes THE QUESTION Many Have Asked Me~

Some question rather one can be saved if one takes their own life. God would never cause one to do that, but he would allow Satan too. Sin allows Satan in, but Jesus died for our sins. I know the pain of losing a loved one very well, and it leaves those left behind feeling lost and trying to understand why it happened. In 2006, I felt like I was having a nightmare only I could not wake up from it. My daughter’s boyfriend (Sammy) took his own life. Without question it was the worst pain I ever endured. What magnified the pain was some Christians telling me he was condemned to Hell. I cried and prayed to the Lord. I was so concerned over Sammy’s spirit, asking the Lord for HIS answer. I prayed for the Lord’s spiritual wisdom and one day after going on a jog and praying (what I like to refer to as a spiritual run) asking the Lord to help me, God answered my prayer. I came home and just opened my bible, and it seemed to come alive as a scripture popped out at me. 1 Corinthians 5:5 “I have decided to deliver such a one to Satan for the Destruction of his flesh, so that his spirit may be saved in the day of the Lord Jesus.” It was the answer I hoped for and God gave me an immediate peace and understanding. Sammy had a such a caring heart. I know he knew Jesus. GOD WARNS US OF JUDGING OTHERS. We have NO right to condemn one to Hell because God is merciful. It is HIS job to judge, and our job is to love each other and share God’s word.

God says in Matthew 7:1-2 “Judge not, that you be not judged. For with what judgment you judge, you will be judged; and with the measure you use, it will be measured back to you.”

“Remember this, God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those called according to HIS purpose.” Romans 8:28 The Lord used Sammy in my life, HE turned it into a way to serve HIS purpose and help others. The Lord showed me how Sammy was going to reach hearts and share God’s word. The Lord knew how much Sammy loved helping people. He knew how Sammy wanted to be a life-guard because he wanted to save lives. He knew Sammy’s heart. He had a bigger plan for Sammy. God could have stopped Satan, but God had a plan. God sees the big puzzle while we only see pieces of it. When all the pieces come together then we will see the full picture. In John 11:25-26 Jesus said. “The man who believes in me will live even though he dies, and anyone who is alive and believes in me will never die at all. We never know what God has in store for us. God is patient with us. Just know God never makes mistakes, it is just our lack of understanding. Ask Jesus to show you the way!

~When Life Becomes Too Much~

When life becomes too much to bear
With only pain in sight…
Some folks make the choice to die,
By taking their own life. In just one moment, all is lost,
And nothing can replace…
The broken hearts of loved ones dear,
Or the tears that stain their face.

Yet somehow they get through it,
With the grace of God, they do…
Time can heal the deepest wound,
and bring new peace to you. You’ll never know the reason

And it’s not for you to say…

But God responds to every need; Just trust He’ll make a way.

~Author unknown~

~Remember The Love I Gave~

Don’t judge me for how I left this world,
remember the love that I gave.
A lot of grief will follow me,
for the decision that I have made.

Changes appear in everyone’s life,
some good, some bad.
The one that I chose for myself
made everyone very sad.

But in time, memories will heal the hurt of hearts
and my presence will be felt by all with an inner peace.
Remember me when the sun is bright and laughter fills the air,
and a moonlit night and whispers of wind
will tell you that I am there.

Don’t look down on my family
or fill their hearts with blame.
For my leaving them without good-byes,
they will never be the same.

If I could go back in time, I say a last good-bye,
I’d tell them to look to tomorrow
and for me……do not cry……

*Author Unknown*

Lord Jesus Saves
SURVIVING SUICIDE
HELP ~~~ HOPE ~~~ HEALING

Those Who Have Lost a Loved One to Suicide

Sammy Flores Jr.

Sammy Flores Jr~ April 20, 1987 – May 6, 2006
I pray for all those who have lost a loved one to suicide. It is never easy for those left behind. The only way to truly find any comfort is through our precious Lord.  Praying for all of Sammy’s family and friends.
RIP Sammy, you live on in the hearts of all those who loved and knew you!

~Sammy Lives On~

Sammy helped me to see things more clearly. We can’t always choose the situations that life brings us, but we can choose the attitude we will use to face them. The best way to stop worrying or to receive comfort is to start praying. But God may not give us comfort if it keeps us from doing what he wants us to do. Learn from the mistakes of others. We will never live long enough to make them all ourselves. Pray for people who dislike you. Whenever you feel insignificant, remember how important you are to God. Encourage each other and build each other up. A word spoken in anger cannot be erased. It plays over and over again. Walk on soles, not on souls. Be generous with praise and stingy with criticism. To belittle is to be little. And remember what happens in us is more important than what happens to us.

A Little Tribute

A little tribute true and tender,
Just to show that we remember,
Time may pass and fade away,
But memories of you will always stay!

Missing someone get’s easier everyday,
Because even though it is one day further
from the last time you saw each other
it’s one day closer to the next time you will!

Gain and loss, birth and death
are in the hands of God!

 

What does the Bible say about suicide?

Learning Forgiveness In my Own Life.

24 May

 

I am sharing  my own personal story in HOPE of helping others.  Learning forgiveness of others to be forgiven!

      I asked the Lord to forgive me, it took a little time but the Lord has reassured me of his forgiveness. I realized I wouldn’t be forgiven until I was able to forgive those who hurt me. The forgiveness started with my father for all the years of sexual abuse. I realized there was a connection between the abuse of my father and my first failed marriage. I married young at the age of 19, it was only 3 years after I had been engulfed with a lifetime of sexual abuse which involved my grandmother and my mother. He was able to control all of us, having us do his will. He took away my innocence while warping my mind, resulting in my own insecurity. We lived in a house of darkness literally and spiritually, he was a nudist. I remember the shades always down when he was home. We all had to participate. Many of our family vacations involved going to nudist colonies which included my mother, my grandma (mother’s mother) and me. This was his choice, we were just all victims. I loved my grandmother very much but she was a victim just like me, so I never blamed her. She died when I was ten. My mother ended up an alcoholic. I remember him beating her, her crying, and her with a black eye. My mother took her pain out on me and would slap me across the face or pinch my mouth. I recall my father becoming enraged over a lost porn magazine, at first he came after me, pulling back his fist as to hit me but stopped. I was so scared that day, then he turned his rage on my mother. I remember my father sexual molesting my friend and I, she was 9 and I was 10 years old. He had a way of making it into a game. I remember when my dad would go to X-rated stores to buy his magazines, he would leave my mother and I in the car for hours at a time. Then when I was 11 years old, my mother and my grandfather (my father’s father) ran off together which lead to my parent’s divorce. That relationship failed between my mother and grandfather, my mother had no money so my dad was able to take even greater advantage of her and his sex acts became even more perverted by including me. At that time I was living with my Maw Maw (my father’s mother) and the neighbors started taking me to church where I accepted the Lord and was baptized. My father then remarried when I was 13 years old and there was more abuse. My stepmother would always say things to put fear in me. She told me how she and her older daughter murdered her first husband and how they got away with it by claiming self defense, along with other stories to add more fear in me. Every time she would leave the house my father would come for me for his pleasure. Seriously I had come to the point, I wanted to die. For the first time I finally told my secret to a friend that lived a few houses down the street named Mary. The Lord intervened when Mary told her friend Sharon about me. Sharon didn’t know me but told her parents about a girl who was being abused.
I finally told my father I was going to tell and everything hit the fan. As I spoke of the unspeakable, I just wanted to run away, I remember my whole body trembling and shaking. I asked if I could go live with my mother and they said go ahead, but that didn’t work because she was always drunk and the man she was married to threatened to beat me with a big chain. By this time I had Sharon’s parents phone number who offered me help and they took me into their home. They got me legal help and they became my foster parents. I lived with them for about 2 1/2 years and there I learned more about the Lord. I was rescued for a time, but when I finished school I was on my own and the sins of the world engulfed me. I was insecure and I met someone who said they loved me and wanted to get married. But soon after we married I felt I couldn’t trust him. I was so jealous of every girl and child. One day I went to visit a friend out of town and I planned to stay the night but I missed him so much I came home. He wasn’t there and I waited by the window late into the night. When he finally got home I asked him where he had gone, it turned out he went to an x-rated store to buy a x-rated movie. I was so angry. Well, a few weeks later I noticed the trash had been taken out. I knew that wasn’t like my husband to do that without me saying something, so I went out and dug into the trash. There I found x-rated magazines that he had been looking at after he knew how I was so against it. He knew about all the abuse I had endured as a child and the porn my father was into. What I am getting at is my state of mind was so messed up, I couldn’t handle being with someone that reminded me of my Dad. I wanted to separate but during the separation period he found someone else and wanted a divorce. Once my marriage was over my life was filled with sin, drinking, sex, and drugs and I was living my darkest hours. I was alone living in this dark cloud, the Lord seemed miles away. I tried to take my own life by taking a bottle of the remaining Valium I had, only I found myself still alive the next day. I knew something needed to change, I felt so tired. I prayed and asked the Lord for a family and soon after that I met my husband to be. The husband I have now is nothing like my father. We have been together 28 years and he is a wonderful husband and father. A few years ago I decided I wanted to go back home and truly get connected to the Lord. I was on fire and so happy. I called my foster-father and went to visit him after over 30 years and let him know how much I loved all they had done for me. I saw my foster-sister but my foster-mother had already passed away. A few months later my foster-father passed away with cancer. I knew the Lord let me have that chance to tell him how much I appreciated them and thanked him for all they did for me. But going back to church turned out to be so disappointing for me. I never realized I would not be accepted as a member of the body. I tried to explain the situation but it didn’t matter. It was firm I could not be a member unless I divorced my husband because they said I was living in adultery. I couldn’t believe the coldness, where was forgiveness. I was so troubled over it. It ate at me and I prayed for answers. Then on May 6, 2006 my daughter’s boyfriend committed suicide and that was the worst pain I ever felt. I cried out to the Lord like never before. It broke my heart and the pain I felt ran through my whole body.

     I knew God had put this young man in my life for reason. I cried and prayed asking God what can I do? I had never been on MySpace before and yet God lead me to it. I shortly realized he wanted me to make a Tribute to Sammy. In the beginning I felt God was using the site to aid in comforting Sammy’s love ones. But soon afterwards, I started seeing the site go into a transformation. No longer was it just for the loved ones, but for those hurting for various reasons. It was becoming one of God’s tools to give aid and comfort through the word of God. The church shut the door on me but the Lord opened another door for me to serve him.

     Going back to my father. I asked the Lord for forgiveness. I started praying for a heart pleasing to him and his spiritual wisdom. I prayed for mercy, and as time went on I started having a change of heart. I stopped being angry with my father. I found myself praying for him and asking the Lord to have mercy on him. All the terrible feelings I once had vanished. I felt the Lord’s love like never before and I knew I was forgiven for all my past sins. I hold no guilt because I have learned in order to be forgiven by the Lord we must forgive those who hurt us. My father never came to me and asked me to forgive him. I never set eyes on him after 1972, I later heard he died in a car crash at the age of 66. No longer would there be a chance for him to come and ask me for forgiveness, yet I knew the Lord was telling me I needed to forgive. This is a principle taught in the word forgive others to be forgiven.

For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.  But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. Matthew 6:14-15

My mother died at the age of 47 of psoriasis of the liver and never got to see any of her grandchildren. I can pray with no animosity and with sincere love for all those who hurt me. In Dec 2007 the Lord put it in my heart to find my stepmother and forgive her as well. It had been 35 years since I had seen her. I didn’t even know if she was still alive but I figured she must be since the Holy Spirit was putting this in my heart. I knew if she was alive, she would be 76 years old. I did a people search for her and found where she had last lived in 2005 so I decided to take a drive and see if I could find her. I located my stepsister, she had no idea who I was, but I knew it was her. I asked her where my stepmother was and she told me she was in ICU, she told me she had had a heart attack the day before Thanksgiving. I told my stepsister the Lord had put it in my heart to see my stepmother and let her know I had forgiven her and my father for all that happened to me when I was a teen. The Lord knew the perfect timing for me to go so I wouldn’t say too much, I left her an audio bible and player for my stepmother. Then I went to the hospital and was able to visit with my stepmother for a few minutes. I let her know the Lord loves her and that I had forgiven her. My stepmother died 3 years later in 2010 at the age of 79. I still have the scars and the memories, but my wounds have healed. One thing I have learned is not to hide our scars but use them to share with others and show the hope we have when we have the Lord to help us deal with the pain and heal our wounds. Our scars are our testimonies.
The Lord can turn anything into a blessing if we trust him!
And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28
If we want to be forgiven we must forgive others. A good way to start is by praying and asking the Lord to give you a heart that is pleasing to HIM. As one’s heart changes and starts filling up with Love, there is No room for hate. Forgiveness becomes easier and easier. I pray all those who read this will be blessed.
~May the Grace of God be with Each and Everyone of You~
Lord Jesus Saves

~♥ My Foster Parents and I ♥~ (1976)

My wonderful foster parents who took me in when I was 16 years old. This picture was taken around (1976) when I was 20 years old. The Lord planted me in the Church of Christ as a teen and I believe it was for HIS purpose!  Sadly both of my foster parents have passed away! My foster-mother had diabetes and it took her life. My foster-father died of cancer in 2005 but the Lord blessed me by letting me see him a few months before the cancer took him. I was able to tell him and my foster-sister how much I love them and all they did for me! What a great blessing it was to see them after all those years!!!  One added note!! I was re-baptized at the age of 17 years old, the teaching in the Church said my first Baptism done in the Baptist church was invalid. But on Sept 22, 2007 the Holy Spirit let me know I was the Lord’s Child at 11 years old, he knew I was a child hurting and accepted me. I Love how the Holy Spirit opens our eyes to HIS truth.

My foster-sister and her husband (COC preacher), my foster-mother and me (1974).

A brief history!!! There was a girl that lived down the street from me and I confronted her with some of the things going on in my life. She told Sharon who I did not know at the time. Sharon told her parents about me and their heart went out to me. They wanted to help me get out from all the abuse. They helped me by taking me into their home and getting me legal help. They got child welfare involved and they got custody of me from the ages of 16-18 years of age. They were very loving and I learned more about the Lord living there. Sadly because of legalism many of those in the conservative Church of Christ now consider me a fallen Child of God. Things have changed, the Holy Spirit has helped me see things in a new Light! After Sammy’s suicide (my daughter’s boyfriend) the Holy Spirit started moving in my life and started opening my eyes to things I never knew before the age of 50 years old. I give the Lord all the Glory!

my-grandma-and-i

~♥ My Grandma and I ♥~ around 1964!

This is my grandmother (my mother’s mother) and I. She lived with us from my birth till she died June 4, 1966. I was 10 years old and loved her so much! She was a Christian and I believe she must of taught me about the Lord. She was a member of the Pine Forest Baptist Church in Vidor.  After her death I was so very sad but one night I had a beautiful dream and I remember that dream like it was yesterday. I dreamed I received a present. It was a long box wrapped with a big bow. I opened the box and it was my grandma. I was so happy and I remember exactly what was said. I asked her, “Grandma, what is it like in heaven?” And this is what she said “Francine, I can’t tell you, you are going to have to find out for yourself.” What a wonderful dream and I was only 10 years old. That dream was a gift from God. What was the chance that I would ask such a question and that dream would never be forgotten? Could it well be that the Lord knew I would use it one day to glorify him. Less than a year later after she passed away I accepted the Lord and was baptized. I know that the Lord does give us those special dreams and they are for today!  Acts 2:17-18 ‘AND IT SHALL BE IN THE LAST DAYS,’ God says ‘THAT I WILL POUR FORTH OF MY SPIRIT ON ALL MANKIND; AND YOUR SONS AND YOUR DAUGHTERS SHALL PROPHESY, AND YOUR YOUNG MEN SHALL SEE VISIONS, AND YOUR OLD MEN SHALL DREAM DREAMS;  EVEN ON MY BONDSLAVES, BOTH MEN AND WOMEN, I WILL IN THOSE DAYS POUR FORTH OF MY SPIRIT And they shall prophesy.

This is South Park Baptist Church.

I was baptized there when I was 11 years old, November 19, 1967. It looks the same as how I remember it 44 years ago. What is ironic when I was 6-9 years old I lived two houses away from that church yet I had never been in it. The house we were renting was bought by the Church and destroyed to build a bigger parking area. I remember that house as a house of darkness. Always dark because the shades were down. It was there in that house where the molesting got really bad! My father was molesting both my grandma and me. It is know wonder the Lord used my Grandma in the dream to call me to him. It is amazing that very house was destroyed by the Church where I found the Lord and accepted Jesus into my heart.

As a child hurting I know the Lord used a dream to help comfort me and bring me to the Him!

My Dream as a child was a Gift from GOD!

† Porn is a Serious Problem Even Among Christians. If you or someone you know is suffering from this addiction know there is Help!!!

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