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Jesus, When Will I See You?

11 Nov

Could Jesus Return In The Year 2067?

Dreaming of Jesus ~ The most important thing to remember is to be ready at all times, we don’t know when our final hour is up. “Follow Jesus and you will never be lost”. Ask Jesus into your heart, repent of your sins and ask Him for forgiveness. ~Remember Jesus is Our Ark ~ Our Savior ~ Our Only Way To Eternal Life~

Dori’s Dream

( When I named my daughter Dori I gave her that name because it meant gift from God. But a few years ago I learned Dori in Hebrew means “My Generation”)

Dreaming of Jesus

It was Sunday Sept. 11, 2016 when my daughter said, “Mom, I have to tell you about this dream I had last night”. See she had just moved into her new apartment, but before moving in she felt it was very important to do a spiritual housecleaning. She went inside and out from room to room praying, rebuking evil spirits, and saying blessings while anointing with oil. (The dream followed after the spiritual housecleaning.) She said Jesus was speaking to her in her dream and that she instantly started praising Him, telling Him how much she loved Him. Then He shocked her with this question: “BUT DO YOU KNOW GOD?” That question really upset her and she fell to her knees crying.  She grabbed a post in front of her, clinging to it, and said “Yes! I know Yahweh! Creator of Heaven and Earth!” She couldn’t believe the Lord would ask her that question. Then He said, “YES YOU DO.” She felt a sense of relief and said, “Jesus I want to see You! When can I see You?” Jesus responded with, “2067.” In her dream, she felt upset that she would have to wait so long to see Him, but He began telling her there were things she would do and that she would grow more spiritually. My daughter did not see Him in her dream but she could hear Him as he spoke.

My daughter had this dream that stood out like no other, she was in the presence of Jesus. Was it prophetic? Only time will tell. Does it go against the written word? Jesus said in Mark 13: 32 “But of that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but the Father alone. But in my daughter’s dream, Jesus responded to her question with nothing except “2067” NO day or NO hour. Luke 11:10“For everyone who asks, receives; and he who seeks, finds; and to him who knocks, it will be opened. 11“Now suppose one of you fathers is asked by his son for a fish; he will not give him a snake instead of a fish, will he? 12“Or if he is asked for an egg, he will not give him a scorpion, will he? So if a question is asked in a dream, might Jesus answer it?

  Man of Lawlessness

   2 Thessalonians 2:  Now we request you, brethren, with regard to the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ and our gathering together to Him, 2 that you not be quickly shaken from your composure or be disturbed either by a spirit or a message or a letter as if from us, to the effect that the day of the Lord has come. 3 Let no one in any way deceive you, for it will not come unless the apostasy comes first, and the man of lawlessness is revealed, the son of destruction, 4 who opposes and exalts himself above every so-called god or object of worship, so that he takes his seat in the temple of God, displaying himself as being God. 5 Do you not remember that while I was still with you, I was telling you these things? 6 And you know what restrains him now, so that in his time he will be revealed. 7 For the mystery of lawlessness is already at work; only he who now restrains will do so until he is taken out of the way. 8 Then that lawless one will be revealed whom the Lord will slay with the breath of His mouth and bring to an end by the appearance of His coming; 9 that is, the one whose coming is in accord with the activity of Satan, with all power and signs and false wonders, 10 and with all the deception of wickedness for those who perish, because they did not receive the love of the truth so as to be saved. 11 For this reason God will send upon them a deluding influence so that they will believe what is false, 12 in order that they all may be judged who did not believe the truth, but took pleasure in wickedness.

We are assuming 2067 is a year.
1 Thessalonians 4: 13 But we do not want you to be uninformed, brethren, about those who are asleep, so that you will not grieve as do the rest who have no hope. 14 For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so God will bring with Him those who have fallen asleep in Jesus. 15 For this we say to you by the word of the Lord, that we who are alive and remain until the coming of the Lord, will not precede those who have fallen asleep. 16 For the Lord Himself will descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. 17 Then we who are alive and remain will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air, and so we shall always be with the Lord. 18 Therefore comfort one another with these words.

The Word Teaches In the Last Days as Spoken of Through the Prophet Joel:

Acts 2:17 And it shall come to pass in the last days, saith God, I will pour out of my Spirit upon all flesh: and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams:

18 And on my servants and on my handmaidens I will pour out in those days of my Spirit; and they shall prophesy:

19 And I will shew wonders in heaven above, and signs in the earth beneath; blood, and fire, and vapour of smoke:

20 The sun shall be turned into darkness, and the moon into blood, before that great and notable day of the Lord come:

21 And it shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved.

Interesting Verses~

Amos 3:7 Surely the Lord God will do nothing, but he revealeth his secret unto his servants the prophets.

Message to the Church in Sardis

Rev. 3:3 So remember what you have received and heard; and keep it, and repent. Therefore if you do not wake up, I will come like a thief, and you will not know at what hour I will come to you.


Update 5/12/2019 ~ My Thoughts

I believe the Year 2067 may be a Jubilee year. Why might this be significant? In the Book of Leviticus to the Israelites,
the land was returned to the original owner in the year of Jubilee.
Lev.5: 23The land, moreover, shall not be sold permanently, for the land is Mine; for you are but aliens and sojourners with Me.
Lev. 25:38‘I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt to give you the land of Canaan and to be your God.
Deut. 10:14 “Behold, to the LORD your God belong heaven and the highest heavens, the earth and all that is in it.

Significant Events For Israel

November 1917 ~ Balfour Declaration~ recognizes the historical bond of the Jewish People to the Holy Land, a bond that existed long before the declaration.

June 1967 ~ Six-day war~ Israel captured and controlled the city of Jerusalem for the first time since Babylonian captivity.

May 14, 1948 ~ Israeli Declaration of Independence

Dec 6, 2017 ~ Donald Trump formally recognized Jerusalem as the capital of Israel

There are two main types of calendars used by the Israelites. One is the CIVIL CALENDAR and the other one is a RELIGIOUS CALENDAR.
It appears the civil calendar is the one used mostly today. The scriptures I am sharing are for the religious calendar

In the Book of Esther, we see the calendar starts with the month of Nisan 1. In Book of Leviticus, it is talking about the Jubilee, the seventh month is Tishri and the 10th is the day of atonement.

In the Book of Esther 3: 7In the first month, which is the month Nisan, in the twelfth year of King Ahasuerus, Pur, that is the lot, was cast before Haman from day to day and from month to month, until the twelfth month, that is the month Adar.

In the Book of Leviticus 25: 8‘You are also to count off seven sabbaths of years for yourself, seven times seven years, so that you have the time of the seven sabbaths of years, namely, forty-nine years. 9You shall then sound a ram’s horn abroad on the tenth day of the seventh month; on the Day of Atonement, you shall sound a horn all through your land. 10‘You shall thus consecrate the fiftieth year and proclaim a release through the land to all its inhabitants. It shall be a jubilee for you, and each of you shall return to his own property, and each of you shall return to his family.

In the year 2067, the Jewish year will start Nisan 1, 5827 ~ March 17, 2067 by the Gregorian calendar.  Rosh Hashana known as the Feast of Trumpets starts at sunset Friday, September 9, 2067- Sept. 11, 2067  Tishri 1-2, 5828

Of Most Important

Remember to be ready at all times, we don’t know when our final hour is up and we take our last breath.
Ask Jesus into your heart, repent of your sins, ask Him for forgiveness, and be baptized.
    “Follow Jesus and you will never be lost”.

~Remember Jesus is Our Ark ~ Our Savior ~ Our Only Way To Eternal Life~

Do Not Worry

(Luke 12:22-34)

25 Therefore I say unto you, be not anxious for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than the food, and the body than the raiment? 26 Behold the birds of the heaven, that they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; and your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are not ye of much more value then they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add one cubit unto the measure of his life? 28 And why are ye anxious concerning raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin: 29 yet I say unto you, that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God doth so clothe the grass of the field, which to-day is, and to-morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith? 31 Be not therefore anxious, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed? 32 For after all these things do the Gentiles seek; for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things. 33 But seek ye first his kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

Lord Jesus Saves
And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those
who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28
I started this blog two years and eight months ago on 11-11-2016, keeping it private. Now public 5-13-2019.

Dear Heavenly Father,

I pray You open each of our eyes to Your spiritual wisdom,
understanding, and knowledge as You guide us!
Lord, I ask you to give each one of us a heart that is pleasing in Your eyes.
Lord, I pray that Your Spirit of Truth will come upon each and everyone
one of us to open our eyes to see things more clearly, and
cast out any deceptive spirits. You are the one and only
Almighty God, the creator of all things, visible and invisible,
we sincerely need Your spiritual guidance and will for
direction in each of our lives. I pray each of us here is truly
sincere in our hearts to seek Your truth and find Your
gift of Eternal Life. Thank you, Lord, In Jesus mighty name I pray,


Is Preparing For An Emergency Showing a Lack of Faith?

19 Nov

     One should not prepare out of fear but out of wisdom. Back in 1999, I started preparing by ordering MRE’s (meals-ready-to-eat). I stocked up on candles, kerosene for the lamps, and batteries. I bought a clothesline to hang up in the backyard with clothes pins along with many other essentials. Well, nine years later the survival supplies I bought became a great blessing. Hurricane Ike was in the Gulf of Mexico, and both my daughter and I had a dream on the same night, that the storm would be coming our way. With a few days still lift before arrival I took the warnings seriously to prepare even more. I filled up 5 five gallons gas cans and started freezing containers of water. I bought extra water and nonperishable items. Considering the possible chance of a tornado I prepared a safe area in a restroom that is located in the center of the house. Sept 8, 2008 the storm rolled in with a vengeance, yet we live inland 90 miles from the gulf. We quickly lost power which lasted 15 days before power could be restored. Hurricane Ike left destruction all along its path, we could hear the limbs popping from the trees. The next day our house was still standing but there was a lot of debris that needed cleaning up. All the supplies I had stockpiled came in handy.

Neighbors Helping Neighbors

     I was able to share some of our MRE’s with our neighbors and give them some gas while they shared the use of their generator so we could plug a fan in. My daughter was pregnant at the time and the heat made it very uncomfortable for her to sleep at night, having the power to run the fan was a blessing for her. Trusting In our Lord is of the greatest importance but he desires his children to be prudent and if one is able to prepare it is wise to do so.  In Genesis 41 we learn about the importance of preparedness. Pharaoh had two dreams and the Lord gave Joseph the gift of interpreting them. Both dreams had the same interpretation, seven years of abundance and seven years of famine. The Lord warned them and they heeded the warnings by stockpiling grain during the seven years of abundance. When the famine came they were prepared and many lives were saved. By far being prepared spiritually is of the greatest importance, as putting total Trust in Jesus, and praying for his guidance and direction in all aspects of our lives.

This is our front yard after Hurricane Ike hit.
I did laundry like my mom use to.

These are the MRE’s we ate.

Lord Jesus Saves

Losing A Loved One to Suicide~

11 Jul

Loss of a loved one to suicide.

Now Comes THE QUESTION Many Have Asked Me~

Some question rather one can be saved if one takes their own life. God would never cause one to do that, but he would allow Satan too. Sin allows Satan in, but Jesus died for our sins. I know the pain of losing a loved one very well, and it leaves those left behind feeling lost and trying to understand why it happened. In 2006, I felt like I was having a nightmare only I could not wake up from it. My daughter’s boyfriend (Sammy) took his own life. Without question it was the worst pain I ever endured. What magnified the pain was some Christians telling me he was condemned to Hell. I cried and prayed to the Lord. I was so concerned over Sammy’s spirit, asking the Lord for HIS answer. I prayed for the Lord’s spiritual wisdom and one day after going on a jog and praying (what I like to refer to as a spiritual run) asking the Lord to help me, God answered my prayer. I came home and just opened my bible, and it seemed to come alive as a scripture popped out at me. 1 Corinthians 5:5 “I have decided to deliver such a one to Satan for the Destruction of his flesh, so that his spirit may be saved in the day of the Lord Jesus.” It was the answer I hoped for and God gave me an immediate peace and understanding. Sammy had a such a caring heart. I know he knew Jesus. GOD WARNS US OF JUDGING OTHERS. We have NO right to condemn one to Hell because God is merciful. It is HIS job to judge, and our job is to love each other and share God’s word.

God says in Matthew 7:1-2 “Judge not, that you be not judged. For with what judgment you judge, you will be judged; and with the measure you use, it will be measured back to you.”

“Remember this, God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those called according to HIS purpose.” Romans 8:28 The Lord used Sammy in my life, HE turned it into a way to serve HIS purpose and help others. The Lord showed me how Sammy was going to reach hearts and share God’s word. The Lord knew how much Sammy loved helping people. He knew how Sammy wanted to be a life-guard because he wanted to save lives. He knew Sammy’s heart. He had a bigger plan for Sammy. God could have stopped Satan, but God had a plan. God sees the big puzzle while we only see pieces of it. When all the pieces come together then we will see the full picture. In John 11:25-26 Jesus said. “The man who believes in me will live even though he dies, and anyone who is alive and believes in me will never die at all. We never know what God has in store for us. God is patient with us. Just know God never makes mistakes, it is just our lack of understanding. Ask Jesus to show you the way!

~When Life Becomes Too Much~

When life becomes too much to bear
With only pain in sight…
Some folks make the choice to die,
By taking their own life. In just one moment, all is lost,
And nothing can replace…
The broken hearts of loved ones dear,
Or the tears that stain their face.

Yet somehow they get through it,
With the grace of God, they do…
Time can heal the deepest wound,
and bring new peace to you. You’ll never know the reason

And it’s not for you to say…

But God responds to every need; Just trust He’ll make a way.

~Author unknown~

~Remember The Love I Gave~

Don’t judge me for how I left this world,
remember the love that I gave.
A lot of grief will follow me,
for the decision that I have made.

Changes appear in everyone’s life,
some good, some bad.
The one that I chose for myself
made everyone very sad.

But in time, memories will heal the hurt of hearts
and my presence will be felt by all with an inner peace.
Remember me when the sun is bright and laughter fills the air,
and a moonlit night and whispers of wind
will tell you that I am there.

Don’t look down on my family
or fill their hearts with blame.
For my leaving them without good-byes,
they will never be the same.

If I could go back in time, I say a last good-bye,
I’d tell them to look to tomorrow
and for me……do not cry……

*Author Unknown*

Lord Jesus Saves

Those Who Have Lost a Loved One to Suicide

Sammy Flores Jr.

Sammy Flores Jr~ April 20, 1987 – May 6, 2006
I pray for all those who have lost a loved one to suicide. It is never easy for those left behind. The only way to truly find any comfort is through our precious Lord.  Praying for all of Sammy’s family and friends.
RIP Sammy, you live on in the hearts of all those who loved and knew you!

~Sammy Lives On~

Sammy helped me to see things more clearly. We can’t always choose the situations that life brings us, but we can choose the attitude we will use to face them. The best way to stop worrying or to receive comfort is to start praying. But God may not give us comfort if it keeps us from doing what he wants us to do. Learn from the mistakes of others. We will never live long enough to make them all ourselves. Pray for people who dislike you. Whenever you feel insignificant, remember how important you are to God. Encourage each other and build each other up. A word spoken in anger cannot be erased. It plays over and over again. Walk on soles, not on souls. Be generous with praise and stingy with criticism. To belittle is to be little. And remember what happens in us is more important than what happens to us.

A Little Tribute

A little tribute true and tender,
Just to show that we remember,
Time may pass and fade away,
But memories of you will always stay!

Missing someone get’s easier everyday,
Because even though it is one day further
from the last time you saw each other
it’s one day closer to the next time you will!

Gain and loss, birth and death
are in the hands of God!


What does the Bible say about suicide?

Suicide Among Saints
Is Killing Oneself A Sin?


30 Jun

It is never too late to Forgive.
Even if it has been 35 Years AGO!

A day of fasting and prayer was all I needed to see what the Holy Spirit wanted me to do. The day after Thanksgiving, November 23, 2007, I spent fasting and praying. The days following, the Holy Spirit was putting things in my heart that he wanted me to do, finding my stepmother was one of those things.  See it had been 35 years since I had seen her and I didn’t even know if she was still alive. I knew if she was, she would be 76 years old. I did a people search for her and found where she had last lived in 2005 so I decided to take the two-hour drive and see if I could find her. I located her home, there was a little hanging basket with magazines with her name on them but no one was at home.

So then I drove to the address where I believed my stepsister lived. Again no one was home. I just knew the Lord wouldn’t put this in my heart for no reason so I was not ready to give up. I drove back to the little house of my stepmother and this time the magazines were gone, so I knew someone had been there. Again I went to the door but no one was home. I even went up to a couple of the neighbor’s doors but no one knew her. So I drove back to the house that I believed to be my stepsister’s and this time I saw another vehicle in the driveway. I went back to the door, but no one answered. I decided to try the back door and my stepsister came out. She had no idea who I was but I knew it was her. I told her who I was and she looked shocked to see me after all these years. I asked her where my stepmother was and she told me she was in ICU, she told me she had had a heart attack the day before Thanksgiving. I told my stepsister the Lord had put it in my heart to come visit my stepmother and let her know I had forgiven her and my father for all that happened to me when I was a teen. What surprised me was to find out my stepsister had no idea about the sexual abuse that was going on during my teen years. No one had ever told her anything about it, (she is about 3 years older than I am). Our conversation was very limited and I believe the Lord wanted it that way with the timing of my visit! I felt I shouldn’t mention anything to her about the verbal abuse of my stepmother. The Lord knew the perfect timing for me to go so I wouldn’t say too much but I did leave with her an audio bible and player to give my stepmother. I went to the hospital and was able to visit my stepmother for a few minutes. I let her know the Lord loves her and that I have forgiven her and my father. I still have the memories and the scars, but my wounds are healed. One thing I have learned is not to hide our scars, but to use them to glorify the Lord.

The Lord can turn anything into a blessing if we trust him! Our scars are our testimonies.

And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28

UPDATE~ On September 23, 2010, two years and 10 months from the date of that visit my stepmother passed away. Whether she turned to the Lord I do not know but I do know it was the Lord’s will that I forgave her.

Forgiving the Enemy

Olbermann: Amish Forgiveness is Christ Like

Lord Jesus Saves

My 40 Day Fast Dec. 26, 2006 – Feb. 3, 2007

28 Jun
My 40 Day Fast
Dec. 26, 2006 – Feb. 3, 2007
Christmas Day Dec 25, 2006
I had a rash on the back of my arms as you can see in this picture.
This picture was taken the day after my fast. I lost 33 pounds during the 40 day fast.
This picture was taken Feb. 4, 2007
In the beginning of 2006, the Lord put it in my heart to fast. I was having health issues. My blood pressure was high and the doctor increased my dosage of Norvasc to 10 mg now another drug was being added Enal April 5 mg. I had stopped taking it because I didn’t like the side effects. I started searching for alternative medicine and cures. In my research, I learned about the Master Cleanser. I learned about how we need to eat to have a more alkaline body. Many of us have acidic bodies that fester diseases, the perfect environment for cancer. I went out and bought test strips to test the PH in my body and I found I was very acidic. I would think about fasting but for some reason, I was never motivated enough. Then May 6, 2006 Sammy (my daughter’s boyfriend) took his own life and it changed mine. I was hurting and I knew the Lord was the only one who could help me. The Lord led me to make a MySpace site for Sammy and the Holy Spirit took me step by step moving in me like never before. But then after six months of the Holy Spirit directing me, I wasn’t feeling his presence as much. I was beginning to feel physically worse. My blood pressure was getting higher. Also, I had a great amount of itching under my skin, and my skin was rashy. I started thinking maybe the itching was coming from my liver because when I would eat it would get worse. I believed my liver had too many toxins and it was being overworked and couldn’t handle it all. Then the Holy Spirit laid it on my heart again too fast, but this time he was telling me 40 days. I was reaffirmed on Dec 23, 2006, when my blood pressure reached an all-time high of 202/124. I felt like my eyes wanted to pop and my head felt like it was going to burst. Mind you, I had never spiritually fasted before and in church, they never taught about fasting, but the Holy Spirit was putting it in my heart. The Lord knew the perfect timing, with over 5000 friends on the MySpace site and knowing how many were hurting from depression, sickness, abuse, losses, financial problems, addictions and etc. I knew he wanted me to do the fast. The Lord had prepared me earlier in the year because he had a purpose that I had no idea was coming. Now fasting was no longer just for me, but for all those on the site plus I had many prayer requests coming in for people with special needs. Now I had the motivation while before I didn’t. I knew I needed to give up TV and the internet in order to focus more on the Lord, so that is what I did.
Fasting is just as important today as it was thousands of years ago. The Bible doesn’t say if you fast, it says when you fast Matthew 6:16-17. Many Christians today overlook the importance of fasting. I would always quote if you have the faith of a mustard seed you can move a mountain, but the very next verse Matthew 17:21 says “However, this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.” Now Jesus was talking about casting out demons, but if you have a great need, praying and fasting may be just what the doctor (Jesus) ordered. Before taking on any fast, pray, and ask the Holy Spirit to guide you. Never attempt a long fast without the Lord speaking to you and letting you know this is his will for you. Many fasts are mentioned in the bible. The Bible speaks of a fast that lasted one night, one day, three days, seven days, fourteen days, twenty-one days, and forty days. There are 23 fasting stories in the Old Testament and 12 in the New Testament. When Jesus fasted in Luke 4:1, the bible says Jesus was filled with the Spirit. Now take a look at Luke 4:14 which says Jesus has been tempted by Satan and has defeated him, something has changed. The Bible now says Jesus has the power of the Spirit. So we can see there is a difference between being filled with the Spirit and having the power of the Spirit. Fasting is a way to release God’s power in our own lives. When we fast it is a choice for God and against our flesh. We are making a conscious inward choice demonstrated by an outward act that we want God’s power to flow through us, not our own. It shows God we want his answer and not our own. The Pharisees fasted and wondered why Jesus’ disciples didn’t. Jesus responded “While the bridegroom is with them, the attendants of the bridegroom cannot fast, can they? So long as they have the bridegroom with them, they cannot fast. But the days will come when the bridegroom is taken away from them, and then they will fast in that day” Mark 2:19-20. So you can see fasting was never done away with. It is just as important today as it was for the early Christians. Something else I learned I thought was interesting, did you know even the animals fasted In Jonah 3:5-10? Let neither man nor beast, herd nor flock, taste anything, do not let them eat, or drink water.

The Master Cleanser

The Master Cleanser Book.

1 to 2 Tablespoons of Maple syrup (never use honey, it will make you sick).

1/10 Teaspoon of cayenne pepper (red pepper) or to taste.

2 Tablespoons of lemons or lime juice (approx. ½ lemon).

10 oz. water, medium-hot (spring or purified)


Sea salt (not iodized) It won’t work right if it is Iodized.

Smooth Move (herbal laxative tea)


Measuring spoons

Mason jar (I use the jars that come from HEB’s pasta sauce, they have measurements on them)

Small pot



My Journal (I recorded what I was feeling and doing each day so I would later be able to share this testimony of how the Lord saw me through this fast.)


Cassette player

Audio Bible



¼ to ½ Epson Salt

¼ to ½ cup Ginger

¼ Sea Salt

Hydrated Bentonite

Dry Brush

Not shown–Deodorant (I use Thai Crystal Mist-100% Natural aluminum-free)

Dental Care

Tooth Brush

Tom toothpaste (I also like to use a nice mint toothpaste which is refreshing)

Tea Tree mouthwash

Water pic

GSE (Grapefruit seed extract- I use two drops in my water pic-it kills germs)

Tongue scraper

Health Monitoring

Blood Pressure gauge

PH paper (checking your body’s PH to see if it is acidic or alkaline)

Day 1 Tuesday
December 26, 2006
Last night I had a dream of Jesus holding my hands, giving me support. It was a silhouette of him kneeling down on one knee. This is the first time I have ever had a silhouette dream. I know this is the Lord letting me know not to worry” I will be with you, helping you”…
A Silhouette
I quit drinking coffee on Dec. 24, 2006, so I wouldn’t have a bad headache today when I started my fast. I got up around 8:00 AM and fixed the sea salt flush. Drinking a quart isn’t that easy, that is 32 oz. The taste isn’t pleasant, after getting it all down it made my stomach somewhat nauseous, but I must admit it works well. By 4:00 PM I have downed 6 glasses of the lemon cleanser. I am feeling a little hungry. I have rubbed peppermint oil on the sides of my face and the back of my neck which is refreshing. By 10:00 PM I downed 4 more.
Day 2 Wednesday
December 27, 2006
This morning I woke up at 7:00 AM and drank the sea salt flush. By 4:00 PM I had drank 5 glasses of the lemon cleanser. I feel a little depressed. I have been praying. I am very hungry and I want food really bad. Lord help me get through this. I know I can’t do this without you. My stomach is rumbling. I had 2 more glasses of lemon cleanser. I checked my blood pressure. It is 200/103. I drank a smooth move. My thoughts are clouded. I prayed and listened to my audio bible.
Day 3 Thursday
December 28, 2006
I drank a glass of smooth move. Last night I was sweating some. I feel tired and a little depressed. I pray my thoughts of food will fade. I drank 6 glasses of the lemon cleanser. I took a bath in the spa using Epsom salt and ginger. I spent about 20 minutes in the tub. I am drinking another smooth move.
Day 4 Friday
December 29, 2006
This morning I got up around 6:00 AM. I drank a pint (16 oz) of the sea salt flush. My hips and legs ache. My right eye has red puffiness under it and I have a zit on my chest. I have been asking the Lord to remove my desire for food. I really miss eating. Today I drank 6 glasses of the lemon cleanser. I jogged about ¾ of a mile in a light sprinkle. Being around food is hard. My family eats and I can smell it in the kitchen. Tonight I cooked spaghetti for my husband and as I cooked it I was thinking about how thankful I am for the food God gives us. I took another spa bath, but I used sea salt, ginger, and hydrated Bentonite. I drank a smooth move. Fasting makes you appreciate food. Thank You, Jesus!
Day 5 Saturday
December 30, 2006
Today I started with a smooth move. This morning the top part of my legs ache but not as bad as yesterday. This morning I got in the spa and used peppermint castile soap. It helped my achy legs. I drank 8 lemon cleansers.
This evening I feel better than I have in a long time. I am starting to feel alive, more awake, and I am beginning to feel more energy.
Tonight I don’t feel as hungry as I had been feeling. I am going to drink a smooth move. Dear Lord take my desire for food away. When Jesus fasted and Satan tempted him to turn stone into bread Jesus said man does not live by bread alone.
I took another spa bath with Epsom salt and ginger (tub time is a great time to pray). I continue to pray that I am doing this fast in a way that is pleasing to the Lord. I thank Jesus and all those on MySpace who are praying for me.
Day 6 Sunday
December 31, 2006
I got up and drank a smooth move. My right ear feels strange. I feel something going on inside of my ear. My legs still ache a little. Today I drank 8 lemon cleansers. I went jogging which I like to refer to as a spiritual run because I pray while I jog. I ran 1 mile which was easier than I thought it would be. When I finally started to think about how far I had gone I noticed I was coming up to my 1-mile marker. I came home and got in the spa using Epsom salt and ginger. My family has been eating around me and I am getting used to not eating. I still have desires for food but it is getting easier. I hear fireworks popping and I am thankful the Lord is helping me get through this fast. My blood pressure was better today than it has been in years 117/76. What a difference from less than 2 weeks ago when my blood pressure was 202/124 and my head and eyes were killing me. Man’s wisdom and God’s wisdom are different. I had people say you need to lower your blood pressure before you start your fast. But I have put my trust in Jesus and I know he will heal me. He is the great physician.
I had a smooth move.
Day 7 Monday
January 1, 2007
Happy New Year! I got up around 7:00 AM. I made my sea salt flush. I drank about a pint of it. I found that works well for me. It flushes me out well. Trying to drink a quart is hard to get down. I want to mention you would never want to leave your home for at least 2 to 2 ½ hours after taking in the saltwater. By 2 ½ hours, all the water has gone through me. When I do the sea salt flush it makes me thirstier. I am not as hungry today as before. Actually, it isn’t hunger, but just the thought of food. It is a lot better now. Every day I pray and in between, I am thanking the Lord for all he has done for me. My friends on MySpace, Sammy’s family, my family, and friends have been part of my daily prayers. Again I can’t thank you enough for all your prayers that are coming to me. The Lord knew the right time for this fast. I went jogging (my spiritual run). My husband took before and after pictures. As I prayed the Lord was letting me know the importance of never trying to do a fast of this sort without prayer. Prayer is of the most importance in order to be successful in completing your fast. I drank 6 lemon cleansers and a smooth move.
I decorated the front of my journal.
Day 8 Tuesday
January 2, 2007
I got up and drank a smooth move around 8:00 AM. I got a late start today. It is almost 11:00 AM and I am on my first lemon cleanser. I am a little sleepy right now probably because I stayed up later than I should have.
Well, it is 7:30 PM and I made my 7th lemon cleanser. Today I have been more tired and hungry. My son was cooking Eggplant Parmesan with tomato sauce and mozzarella cheese and I could smell it throughout the whole house. Even after I left the house I could still smell it when I got in my car. I think the smell stuck to my clothes. This day has been harder. I noticed that since I have been fasting I get colder now before I was always hot. I didn’t jog today. I find when I jog I am less hungry. Every day I go through the prayer request at least twice and I want you to know I am praying for you. I know I will sleep well tonight because I am very tired. I am on my 8th glass of lemon cleanser and then have a smooth move. Lord, I pray tomorrow will be easier than today. I pray it will be more like yesterday.
Day 9 Wednesday
January 3, 2007
During the night I was so cold. The last two days have been this way. I drank a smooth move. Today I tried using lime instead of lemon in my cleanser. The taste isn’t much different other than the lime makes it a little tangier. I jogged 1 mile. When I got home I took a ginger and Epsom salt bath in the spa. I didn’t want to get out. Ginger causes your nose to run and you will feel burning all over your body. I find it very refreshing. Today I had 8 lime cleansers and another smooth move.
Day 10 Thursday
January 4, 2007
Well, it is day 10. I got up around 7:00 AM. I weighed this morning and I have lost 14 pounds. I took my blood pressure and I got an amazing reading of 109/69 heartbeat was 71. On Dec. 13, 2006, I had a reading of 202/ 124 (That night I was praying, Lord please don’t let me have a stroke before I get a chance to start my fast. I had the worse heartache that night.) My blood pressure was never that low when I was taking blood pressure medicine. One thing I have discovered is you always get different readings from one arm to the other. My blood pressure is usually lower in my left arm. I drank a smooth move. This morning I took the chicken off the bones for the dogs with no problem. I laid in the spa using hydrated Bentonite. It is 5:30 PM and I am on my 7th lemon cleanser. My son was eating pizza and I am missing food bad. I feel a little depressed. Lord help me, please don’t let me fail. I know I can only do this with your help. I finished my 8th lemon cleanser and then had a smooth move
Day 11 Friday
January 5, 2007
It’s my birthday, I am 51 years old. I drank the sea salt flush and my stomach feels bad. I have a red bump that has come out in my ear. The sea salt flush was rough this morning. I know it is important because toxins left in the intestines can get reabsorbed back into the body and make a person really sick. My husband scrambled eggs this morning but I had no problem with it. Today was good. I jogged 1 mile and laid in the spa using ginger and Epsom salt. I drank 6 lemon cleansers today. I ended my day with a smooth move.
Day 12 Saturday
January 6, 2007
Every morning and evening I take time to pray. I go through each prayer request. Throughout the day I say little prayers. I just want to say thanks to everyone who has been praying for me. I know I wouldn’t have made it this far without the Lord and all of your prayers.
I woke up around 7:30 AM and had a smooth move. You can taste the licorice in it which I like. It is 2:20 PM and my older son cooked pizza and I can smell it all over the house. The smell is making me hungry. Lord take my desire for food away. I was itching a little and I had a little burning sensation in both arms. Maybe I am releasing more toxins today. I just showered and feel a little burning around the outside of my mouth. I am a little tired right now.
I took a short nap and then got up. I had a 30-minute workout. I have been getting hiccups a lot lately. This evening my husband and youngest son went out to eat which is good. I won’t have to smell food cooking. Today I drank 8 lemon cleansers and had another smooth move. I was a little irritable today.
Day 13 Sunday
January 7, 2007
This morning I got up around 8:00 AM and drank the sea salt flush. For the most part, I have felt pretty good through this fast other than the desire and hunger for food. I know the Lord is with me and all those prayers, you are getting me through this. I listen to gospel music. I have been listening to Tim Hughes-“Here I Am to Worship”. It is so uplifting. I took a nap and got up. I then had a short workout. My husband took my old back-swing out of the attic. I bought it 30 years ago and I hung upside down for a little while. It stretches the vertebras in the spine. I took another ginger and Epsom salt bath in the spa. I find it so refreshing and it is a great time to pray. Today I drank 8 glasses of lemon cleanser. I had a smooth move.
Day 14 Monday
Jan. 8, 2007
Today I got up at 7:00 AM and I drank a smooth move. I spent some time taking pictures for the fast, the Lord put it in my heart. Today I jogged 1 mile (my spiritual run). It releases endorphins in the brain which make you feel good. I drank 7 lemon cleansers today. This evening my knees are hurting really bad, especially my left knee. I have some swelling below the kneecap. I had a smooth move.
Day 15 Tuesday
January 9, 2007
Last night and this morning my knees have been hurting. My left knee is a little puffy. I woke up at 7:00 AM and had a smooth move. I wanted to do the sea salt flush but I knew it wouldn’t be a good idea to do it today. Getting up and down is painful and the flush calls for a lot of that. I had a few stomach cramps this morning but they stopped. I used some mineral salts in the spa for my knees. I am so hungry for food. My desire for food is strong. I think smelling it makes it harder. I cooked for my husband today. Yesterday I almost got in a wreck because I noticed new restaurants and I ran a red light luckily the other driver stopped. It was like I was in a trance. Lord, please take the desire for food away. I had a few days that were easier but most days I desire food greatly. But I know this is the Lord’s will for me and I know this will be a great blessing. I remind myself of all those hurting and what I am going through is nothing compared to all of their pain. I know this will all be worth it in the end. I just need to stay strong and not give in to temptation. I am just being honest about how I feel. Very hungry. Who said you lose your desire for food. It is 15 days and I still desire it. Lord make me strong. Today I drank 6 lemon cleansers and had a smooth move. (I had a dream. There was a storm and the glass door broke. Glass was flying and pieces of glass stuck in my left side. I wanted my mother to take me to the hospital but she said no you go, you will be fine.) I wonder what this dream means.
Day 16 Wednesday
January 10, 2007
Last night was my worse night since I started my fast. I couldn’t sleep because my legs ached. Every way I laid hurt. I got up at 5:00 AM and drank the sea salt flush. I would love to say fasting is easy but I need to be honest and not sugarcoat it. The only reason I won’t give up is because I know this is the will of the Lord and all of my friends on MySpace. I know many are hurting more than what I am going through. Lord, I pray this fast is pleasing to you. My knees are still hurting but they are a little better than yesterday. I think this is the Lord’s way of getting me to slow down. I may be exerting myself too much. My left knee is still swollen and my right foot has two bumps where my veins are. I laid in the spa today using ginger and Epsom salt. My skin was itching. This evening I have been a little light-headed and dizzy. I drank 8 lemon cleansers and had a smooth move. I should sleep well tonight since I didn’t sleep much last night. Thank you Lord, for not letting me give up. My family told me tonight that I make fasting look easy.
Day 17 Thursday
January 11, 2007
Again I want to thank everyone who is praying for me. I know your prayers are helping. I got up at 6:00 AM and drank a smooth move. I took a short nap around noon and I had a dream. I dreamed I was at this church the evening before service. On the floor laid small mattresses that covered the whole room. The members started coming in and laying down on the mattresses. The next morning they arose and their mattresses turned into seats. I noticed they went straight into worship. They never bothered to have breakfast. When I woke up I was trying to understand what this dream could mean.
I believe the Lord was telling me, prayer comes before food. It is almost 2:00 PM and I drank 2 lemon cleansers. My knees are still sore but much better than yesterday and the day before. My legs aren’t hurting anymore. I drank 4 more lemon cleansers. I felt good today.
This evening my legs and knees are hurting again. I guess I was standing too much. I had another smooth move. It is 10:30 PM and I am feeling a little itchy, my toes on my right foot are red.
Day 18 Friday
January 12, 2007
It is 4:05 AM and I can’t sleep, my legs and knees are hurting so bad. I can’t get comfortable. I just drank the sea salt flush. I want to make sure the toxins are getting flushed out. I am itching so my body is probably releasing a lot of toxins at this time. I feel irritable I guess because I can’t sleep. Lord I need you, I know you are here, help me to get rid of this pain in my legs. Well it is almost 6:00 AM and I have the house 80 degrees and I am still cold, so I put on a heavy robe. Before at 70 degrees I would be hot. What a change my body is going through. My elimination is great considering I am not eating food. I am freezing now. This is my first time to fast and being 51 years old I probably have a lot of toxins built up over the years. My stomach is rumbling so I made my lemon cleanser it is 6:08 AM. Hopefully, I will be able to go to sleep soon. That is another thing different, before the fast I could go to sleep in the blink of an eye. My husband would always say I was the fastest person he knew to fall asleep. I am not used to having insomnia. I rubbed a little tea tree oil on me to help my itching. It is 12:00 PM so I am going to lie down and try to take a nap. Now it is 12:50 PM that nap didn’t work my legs are hurting too bad, so I am going to lie in the spa. I am only going to use ginger today. It is 2:00 PM I just finished my bath. I made the water as hot as I could stand it. I was praying and the interpretation of the dream I had the other day came to me. I wrote about it on day 15. Well, this fast is like the storm and the glass in my side is the pain I am going through. My mother telling me I will be fine is the Lord saying I will come out fine from this fast. I want to add this. I noticed a connection between my legs hurting and my blood pressure. It has been higher these last few days since my legs started hurting me. Today I got a reading of 151/93 heart rate 72. It is 6:30 PM and I have been awake since 3:00 AM. I can’t sleep yet I am tired. I haven’t been able to jog to release endorphins in my brain and I am feeling depressed. I feel like there is a battle going on inside me between my flesh and my spirit. My flesh wants food and the desire for it is overwhelming, my spirit says no. I must do the will of the Lord. I think Satan is doing his best to break me. Lord help me! I am doing everything I can to not think about it. But I am struggling because it is hard for me. I can’t do much because of the pain in my legs. I need you, Lord, I know I can’t do this alone but I know this is nothing compared to the suffering you Lord endured. Please keep me strong. There are so many others hurting much more than I and I pray Lord you take their pain away. You said enduring pain and suffering for your sake is what makes us worthy of eternal life. I do so much want to fit that mold. I desire your glory. I feel light-headed. Well, it is 7:00 PM and I am on my 6th lemon cleanser. I put a pain relief therapy patch on each knee so I hope I will be able to sleep.
Day 19 Saturday
January 13, 2007
Well, last night I got a good night’s sleep. I woke up at 7:00 AM and drank the sea salt flush. My legs aren’t aching but my knees still hurt. I am still wearing the therapy patch on my knees. I feel much better this morning than I did last night. I laid in the spa using ginger and eucalyptus Dead Sea mineral bath salts. I am really having problems with my knees. They are swelling up. Most of the swelling is below the knee cap but it is very difficult to get up and down. Even walking hurts. I have to walk and try not to bend my knees. This evening I am using a massager on my legs to see if it will help the pain. Lord please heal my knees and take this pain away. I guess the Lord doesn’t want me to do too much while I am fasting. I am sure this is a blessing, just a painful one. My husband and younger son went to eat Mexican food. I personally am not crazy about it so it is good they are doing it now. It is good they get to enjoy father and son time together. When they get home we are going to play a game. I still am not watching any TV or getting on the internet. My husband and I aren’t intimate during this time. I explained it will have to wait till my fast is over. I am glad he is understanding. I drank 8 lemon cleansers and had a smooth move.
Day 20 Sunday
January 14, 2007
I woke up at 7:00 AM. I made a smooth move. Today is the 20th day and so far I have lost 21 pounds. I am sitting listening to gospel music. I feel sad; my flesh is torturing me with the desire for food. It is 1:09 PM and my husband just scrambled eggs and I smell them. I don’t even want to go in the kitchen and see them. I used the massager on my legs again today. I believe it is helping some. I am having a few stomach cramps. It is 3:52 PM and I am going on my 5th lemon cleaner. I am trying to get rid of these hunger pains. Lord help me! I had a total of 7 lemon cleansers and another smooth move. I was reading a book by Don Colbert, MD called “Get Healthy Through Detox and Fasting” It is an excellent book and he talks a lot about the spiritual side of fasting. I am thinking the reason my legs have been hurting so much is that my body is in the process of breaking down the plaque that is in my arteries. The book talks about how it elevates cholesterol which is a good thing. That means the fast is working. Much plaque can build up in your lower extremities. I felt tired most of the day, with little energy. I feel the toxins are dumping a lot now. My blood pressure hasn’t gone back to the low readings I got in the early part of my fast. I got a reading of 145/87 still that is much better than before my fast which averaged 175 to 185 over 95 to 112. I peaked at 202/124 having the worse headache on Dec 23, 2006.
Day 21 Monday
January 15, 2007
Today I got up at 7:00 AM. I first made the sea salt flush, took a sip, and poured it out. I just couldn’t stomach it this morning so I drank the smooth move. I didn’t have any cravings for food today. I felt good until this evening when my left knee started hurting really bad. I lay in the spa using ginger to help the pain. Today I had 7 lemon cleansers and another smooth move. A neighbor girl brought over some vegetable soup and cornbread for my older son. It smelled so good. I plan to cook soup when I am able to eat again.
Day 22 Tuesday
January 16, 2007
This morning I woke up around 6:00 AM. I made the sea salt flush. It is 11:49 AM, and I just showered. I am hungry again, my stomach has been rumbling. I have completed 3 weeks of my fast. I haven’t eaten since Christmas; my last meal was my Christmas dinner. Again I want to thank everyone who has been praying for me. Thank you, father, for giving me the strength to fight my flesh’s desires. It is 8:18 PM, for the most part, the day was good, but the pain in my knees continues. I just put some more patches on them. I really was hoping to work out but with my knees like this, there is no way. I had 6 lemon cleansers and a smooth move. I have been trying to go to sleep but I am itching. It is 11:51 PM I guess I will go get in the spa and see if it helps. I used my massager on my legs.
Day 23 Wednesday
January 17, 2007
It is 1:00 PM and I just got out of the tub. I used ginger and sea salt, and now my itching is gone. I have been breaking out a little on my lower back. A few months ago I noticed a lump on my spine. It is located a little lower than the middle of my back. It is about the size of a small bird egg. It is hard and it doesn’t move, but it doesn’t hurt. I have been brushing my teeth about 10 times a day. I don’t feel comfortable with the taste in my mouth. When you detox your tongue gets coated with a white film. I use the tongue scraper to remove it. I like to add a couple of drops of grapefruit seed extract (it kills germs) and a cap full of tea tree mouthwash in my water pic. That makes your mouth feel refreshed. I would like to add, never use grapefruit seed extra (GSE) full strength, it will burn you. I am going to make another lemon cleanser then try to sleep. I did go to sleep, I got up around 6:45 AM and drank a smooth move, I laid in the spa tonight using ginger, sea salt, and clove. I had a smooth move. It is 11:12 PM and I am feeling very tired. The bath was very relaxing.
Earlier today I went to the health food store to buy more ginger and they were sold out. A couple of weeks ago when I went they had a bunch. I guess it is a big seller. Of course, they are the only ones around here selling it.
Day 24 Thursday
January 18, 2007
Last night I dreamed my fast was over and there was so much food around me. I started eating and then I realized I was supposed to start out slow. In my dream I was fine but from all I have read, it is very important to start back slowly. The books say you can get very sick and in some cases even die.
I got up at 7:00 AM and drank the sea salt flush. This evening I lay in the spa using ginger and sea salt. These baths are making my skin really soft. My knees are feeling better. Today I drank 6 lemon cleansers and I had a smooth move.
Day 25 Friday
January 19, 2007
I woke up around 6:00 AM and made a smooth move. Now it is 8:27 AM I feel a little depressed and tired. Maybe these little mood swings are normal when fasting. I know this is the 25th day yet I know I still have 15 days to go and that seems far off to me. Lord help me! Take my desire for food away. Please don’t let me fail. I know this will be a blessing for all my friends on the site. It is 11:23 AM and I have this mental pain. My flesh wants food and is telling me to eat and my spirit is telling me to do the Lord’s will. I know I must listen to my spirit, but my flesh is screaming out. This is Satan using my flesh to try to lasso my Spirit. I know I can’t let Satan defeat my Spirit. Lord make my Spirit strong against my flesh. I tell myself Moses did it and Jesus did it. Jesus was tempted throughout his fast by Satan. He stayed strong and by defeating Satan the bible says Jesus came out from his fast with the
power of the Spirit. I want the power of the Spirit in my life for my prayers to help those in need and to heal me. This evening I laid in the spa using ginger, sea salt, and clove. I drank 8 lemon cleansers and I had a smooth move. Today my knees are doing much better. My left knee only hurts a little and my right knee is back to normal. My son bought a treadmill and I worked out on it just a little and I did a few setups.
Day 26 Saturday
January 20, 2007
It is amazing how the Lord continues to help me get through each day. Some days have been so difficult yet the Lord provides me with the strength to go on. I am sure many prayers are being answered. Those who have been praying for me I have been asking the Lord to send special blessings your way. I thank you so much from the depths of my heart. Today I woke up around 8:00 AM and drank the sea salt flush. During the night I woke up at 4:00 AM and it took me about 45 minutes to fall back to sleep, but the rest of the night I slept well. The toes on my right foot look a little strange. The other day my toes on that foot were really red, now they look sort of dried out. At 2:00 PM I went to a baby shower. I prayed before and asked the Lord to help me be strong so I could resist any temptation of food. Thanks to the Lord I found it easy even though all the food set right in front of me.
Day 27 Sunday
January 21, 2007
I woke up around 7:00 AM and drank a smooth move. It is 1:42 PM and I am desiring food again really bad. My husband cooked some veggie burgers and I am smelling them. He is eating in the next room and I can hear him eating chips. Help me Lord; take this desire for food away. Please don’t let me fail. It is 1:46 PM and I am on my 4th lemon cleanser, my stomach has been rumbling again. Today was a rough day as far as my desire for food. I ran and walked 1 mile on the treadmill. I laid in the spa using ginger and sea salt. I drank 6 lemon cleansers and I had a smooth move.
Day 28 Monday
January 22, 2007
I didn’t sleep well last night, but it was caused by things waking me, the phone, and the dogs. I woke up at 7:00 AM and drank the sea salt flush. My husband is off work for a few days so he is going to go on the fast for 2 or 3 days. This morning I made him the sea salt flush (32 oz quart size) since this is his first day. I started out drinking the quart the first two times then I decreased it to a pint (16oz). I drank 6 lemon cleansers and had a smooth move. Today was a good day. My husband completed today, but he was feeling tired being this was his first day.
Day 29 Tuesday
January 23, 2007
This morning I woke up around 6:50 AM. I drank the sea salt flush. I am having a little itching on my mid and lower back. It has started breaking out near the lump on my spine. Since I first noticed the lump a few months ago I have never had any pain associated with it. This evening I did some sit-ups and I had a little workout on the treadmill. I laid in the spa using ginger, sea salt, and clove. I drank 6 lemon cleansers and I had a smooth move. Today is my husband’s second day on the fast and he has been very hungry. He has been weak and nauseated. He did the sea salt flush (16oz) this morning. He had 6 lemon cleansers. For him it is difficult to drink the smooth move, he says it is the worst-tasting tea he has ever tasted. It doesn’t bother me, I think it taste fine. It gives me something different to taste other than the master cleanser. Before my husband started this fast he was saying things like how easy it is to go without eating for a few days. But just 2 days on the fast he has found it to be difficult. I told him it wasn’t easy but the Lord and the prayers are what’s helping me get through this fast.
Day 30 Wednesday
January 24, 2007
Today I woke up around 7:00 AM. I drank a smooth move. I weighed this morning and I have lost 26 pounds, I took my blood pressure this morning and I got a reading of 111/68 with a 66 heart rate. I did another reading and this time I got an amazing low of 106/63 with a heart rate of 63. It has been years since I had a blood pressure reading that low, actually I don’t remember it ever being that low, maybe when I was a teenager. I have been listening to Christian radio 100.7 FM; I really enjoy listening to the Bible Answer Man. I drank 6 lemon cleansers and I had another smooth move this evening. I had my husband rub some hydrated Bentonite on my lower back where it has been breaking out. My husband finished up his 3 day fast today.
Day 31 Thursday
January 25, 2007
I woke up at 7:00 AM and drank the sea salt flush. Today my husband and I went to the park and we both jogged a mile. My legs never bothered me but I found jogging difficult. After my jog, my throat and lungs felt like they were burning. I have been very hungry today. Since my husband’s 3-day fast is over he ate an orange then he ate a bowl of cheerios with soy milk. So far he feels fine. I must say just driving around in the car there are restaurants everywhere. Yesterday we went to Ace Hardware and they were giving away fresh popcorn. Food is everywhere but then I think about those starving in other countries, it is so hard to imagine the pain those people are suffering. It really makes me sad when I think of the children. It is 3:38 PM I am continuing to get amazing blood pressure readings. It is truly awesome. Some would say it is because of the weight loss but three years ago I still weighed less than I do now, my blood pressure was ranging around 155/95 so I know that is more than just weight loss. It is 4:06 PM and I took some blood pressure readings, I broke new low records 96/60 and 95/59. I can’t believe how outstanding my blood pressure is, it is remarkable. It is 6:22 PM my husband took my youngest son out to eat at Luby’s. He had a vegetable plate. I feel very tired and extremely hungry. It is getting harder to down the lemon cleanser. So far I have had 4 of them. Lord help me continue with this fast. My desire for food is great. I know I can only do this with your help. My face looks splotchy and my left eyelid is droopy. Tonight I laid in the spa using ginger, sea salt, and mineral salts. I had a 6 lemon cleanser today and a smooth move. It was difficult to get the drinks down but I managed.
Day 32 Friday
January 26, 2007
Today I woke up at 7:00 AM. I drank a smooth move. I took my blood pressure this morning and I got a reading of 99/56 and a heart rate of 62. That was from my left arm, then I took a reading in my right arm and I got 99/60 heart rate of 63. It is 2:41 PM and my family ordered pizza, it smells so good. Today I learned something really interesting. There is a big difference between refined salt and unrefined sea salt. Unrefined sea salt is healthy for the body in moderation. It can actually lower high blood pressure. It also has an alkaline effect on the body. A test was done that showed how 1 teaspoon of the unrefined sea salt increased the PH in a ½ cup of water from 6.4 to 6.8-7.0 then the same test was done with refined salt and the PH decreased from 6.4-6.0. A healthy body needs to have a PH that stays around 7.2 though usually in the morning it is lower. I have been reading a book called “Salt Your Way To Health” by David Brownstein, MD. He recommends using either Celtic or Redmond sea salt. It is an excellent book and I highly recommend reading it. His website is It is 6:33PM and I am feeling very light-headed. It is 8:46 PM and I just finished my 6th lemon cleanser. I had a smooth move.
Day 33 Saturday
January 27, 2007
It is 3:42 AM and I can’t sleep. I have been awake since 3:00 AM. My back is itching and I know it is going to continue unless I go lay in the spa. I am very tired. It is now 5:30 AM and I just finished lying in the spa. All my itching is gone, I used ginger and sea salt. After the spa bath, I had no trouble sleeping. I woke up at 9:00 AM and drank the sea salt flush. It is 12:37 PM and I have just now drank my 1st lemon cleanser. I am getting a late start today. Earlier all I wanted was plain water. It is 9:07 PM and all I have managed to get down is 4 lemon cleansers. I am hungry but I just can’t drink anymore today. I am going to have a smooth move and just plain water. My husband and son went out to eat Mexican Food. We played Bible Trivia this evening.
Day 34 Sunday
January 28, 2007
Each day is a struggle for me. You would think being my last week I would find it easier but my flesh is fighting back harder against my spirit. My flesh is making it hard to drink my drink and I am struggling to get them down. I don’t want to get physically weak. Continual prayer and knowing this is the will of God is the strength that is getting me through each day. I know this fast will be a blessing for the site, so I know it is necessary that I not let my flesh and Satan win out. Lord, please help me get through these last few days! I woke up at 8:30 AM and drank a smooth move. It is hard deciding rather to drink the sea salt or the smooth move because anything I drink is hard to get down. I took my blood pressure and I got a reading of 113/63 heart rate of 60 on my left arm. My right arm had a reading of 111/63 heart rate of 56. My emotions are running rapid. I feel like crying. My stomach is rumbling with hunger. I am thinking I may go run and pray. Right now I feel almost like I can’t keep going but I know I must. Lord help me and please don’t let me fail. I know the only way I can do this is with your help. Well, I jogged 1 mile and it felt good. It is 4:19 PM and I just finished my first lemon cleanser. It is getting very difficult for me to drink it. I just poured a glass of water and I am going to drink it. I don’t think I am going to be able to drink my 6 lemon cleansers anymore. I just pray I don’t get weak before my fast is over. I laid in the spa using ginger and sea salt. I managed to drink 3 lemon cleansers today and I had another smooth move.
Day 35 Monday
January 29, 2007
I woke up at 5:00 AM stayed awake for about 45 minutes before falling back to sleep. I woke up at 7:08 AM and made the sea salt flush but today I couldn’t drink it, so I made the smooth move instead. I want food, but it is hard putting the drink in my body. The easiest thing for me to down is water. Every day now I am getting excellent blood pressure readings. I have lost 28 pounds and I feel much better than before I started my fast. I have 5 days left after today. Each day I have to take it one day at a time. I must make it through my lows and highs with the help of the Lord and those praying for me. Without your prayers and the Lord I know I would have given up a long time ago. This is the first time in my life to fast so it really has been a new experience. But it has been a struggle so I am not going to lie and say it was easy. Well, it is 9:00 PM; I laid in the spa using ginger and sea salt. I drank 6 lemon cleansers, but the only way I could get them down was by taking the ingredients separately. I may have to continue this way until my fast is over. I had a smooth move.
Day 36 Tuesday
January 30, 2007
I woke up at 4:00 AM and it is now 4:47 AM. I have been thinking and praying, I know the Lord is helping me and I think back to the first night when I had dreamed about Jesus holding my hands. He was letting me know from the beginning he was with me. The fact it was a silhouette dream, something I have never had before lets me know it came from the Lord. The Lord is truly amazing. I pray I am doing this fast in a way that is pleasing to you Lord. I woke up at 7:00 AM, I was sleeping really well but I had to get up to get my son off to school. I drank the sea salt flush this morning. I took a short nap and had a workout on the treadmill and I did a few sit-ups. I have been drinking my lemon cleansers by separating the ingredients. I managed to get 4 down today and a smooth move.
Day 37 Wednesday
January 31, 2007
I woke up around 7:00 AM and I drank a smooth move. Since I have been on this fast my family hasn’t been eating very healthy. I have been letting my husband and older son go to the store but they come home with mostly unhealthy food. They never buy vegetables. Today I am going to go to the store and I pray I will stay strong from the temptation of food. I am planning to make a big pot of vegetable soup so after my fast, I will sip on the broth and then start eating it. I ended up going to Whole Foods. I made sure to pray before entering the store. If you have ever been to one you know how wonderful that store is. They give out free samples but of course, I knew I would not be able to try any. Everything looked great. I bought all kinds of organic fruits and vegetables. I didn’t realize just how much I was spending until I got to the register. I spent $275.00. It is a great store but their prices are high. When I got home I decided to cook for my family since I figured they needed to have a good meal to eat.. I spent hours in the kitchen preparing food. I bought so many different kinds of vegetables. I made a stew for them and some cornbread. I also decided to go ahead a make my homemade vegetable soup. I ended up making two pots of it so I decided to freeze it since I can’t eat any for a few more days. I know freezing isn’t the best way to do things but my excitement got the best of me and I was gun hoe about making it. But now I have something to look forward to when I can eat. I was only able to drink 4 lemon cleansers and I had a smooth move.
Day 38 Thursday
February 1, 2007
I woke up at 7:00 AM and I drank the sea salt flush. I was just thinking of what a blessing this fast has been and for the Lord to put this in my heart. I know my previous years I would never had thought or even desired to take on a fast of this sort. Truly I am blessed for the Lord has continued to get me through each day one at a time. As my fast is nearing the end I continue to give thanks to the Lord and all of you who have been praying for me. Today I laid in the spa for an hour using ginger and sea salt. I only managed to drink 1 lemon cleanser. I am trying to drink plain water. It is very difficult to drink even water but I am trying. I cut up a salad for the family and I made them some peanut butter crispy snacks. I did manage to drink a smooth move.
Day 39 Friday
February 2, 2007
Today I woke up at 7:00 AM. I am having a lot of rumbling in my stomach. I feel a little edgy, my patience is wearing thin. Today I drank 2 lemon cleansers and had my morning smooth move and my evening one. It is good my fast is nearing the end because you wouldn’t believe how hard it is now to drink these things. It may have been easier had I had a variety of different juices to choose from, but I didn’t want to change what I had started. It is 10:04 PM and I have about 26 hours left.
Day 40 Saturday
February 3, 2007
It is 3:21 AM I have been awake for 2 hours. I woke up around 1:00 AM and I was itching like crazy. I laid around for about 30 minutes trying to go back to sleep but the itching was terrible so I laid in the spa for about 1 hour using ginger and sea salt. I still have a little itching but it is much better. I feel like my body is dumping a lot of toxins now maybe because I am mostly drinking water. I have lost 33 pounds since I started this fast. I am hoping I will now be able to sleep. I ended up falling to sleep quickly. I woke up at 8:30 AM. I could only get down 8 oz. of the sea salt flush. I drank 3 lemon cleansers today. I decided not to drink the smooth move.
Sunday, February 4, 2007, Praise The Lord! I am so thankful the Lord saw me through the fast. AMEN!!! The first day after the fast. At 12:15 AM I heated up some of the homemade organic soup. I ate a small amount and went to sleep. I had no problems eating. I learned that the greatest blessings follow fasting and praying!

Note**** If you are a Diabetic there are special instructions In the Master Cleanser.

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Our Children are Precious Gift’s From God!

25 Jun
Our Children are Precious Gift’s From God!

Our children are precious gifts from Almighty God. I am going to share how my children have been a blessing to me with some events that could have been fatal. I have had some amazing things happen in my life where I knew the Lord was watching over my family. When my youngest son was 5 years old and my other son was thirteen, a friend had a swimming party. It was the end of the school year and it was a party for young teenagers. My younger son didn’t know how to swim at the time, so he wore a life jacket. He was having a blast jumping into the deep end. Well, after a while he came over to me and wanted me to take off his life jacket because he said he didn’t feel like swimming anymore. All of us moms were just sitting around talking and laughing. What happened next I know an angel had to have been there because all the teenagers were on the shallow end of the pool playing a game. I never noticed that my little five-year-old son had jumped into the deep end. It just so happened that my older son said something tapped his shoulder and made him turn his head and look back, only to see a little top of my five-year-old’s head barely sticking out of the water. He said he had never moved so fast in his life. He jumped over the side of the pool and dived in to save his little brother from drowning. My older son brought him to me and my little one was crying and was very scared. See, he had forgotten that he wasn’t wearing his life jacket but I am so thankful for the little tap on the shoulder that made my son turn his head, whether it was an Angel or not, I know it was from God. But nine years before this happened my older daughter saved my older son, who saved my youngest son. She was only six years old at the time and he was four. He had been given some candy from preschool. Well, after we got home I went upstairs, and shortly afterward I heard my daughter screaming and crying “MOM, Devin has candy stuck in his throat and he can’t breathe.” I hurried and did the Heimlich maneuver on him. Had she not been there, I would not have known to run down and help him. To this day she can’t stand to see someone sucking on hard candy for the fear of them choking. I am so thankful the Lord has been watching over us all these years, we never know when one will be called home to the Lord.
God Bless Each of You!
Lord Jesus Saves

~Pro-Life Prayers~

24 Jun
~Pro-Life Prayers~

As parents we have hopes and dreams for our children. In 2008 when my 23 year old daughter called me and told me she was pregnant, my first reaction was not one of joy. See I had hoped she would one day find a good man and they would get married, then she would have a child. I never pictured her getting pregnant with no husband, so the shock and my first response was one of disappointment, which made her very upset. The second time she called me she said she was just going to have an abortion, she thought this is what I wanted. It was my first response that made her question rather to keep her baby or not. I told her no and that I was sorry for reacting as I did, the Lord would not want her to take the life of her baby. So even though I was not happy with the way this happened, I knew as a parent I needed to give my daughter support knowing this was no fault of the baby coming. I know my daughter would have suffered great pain in having an abortion. She fell in love with her baby while in the womb and for her adoption was out of the question. It would have been heartbreaking if my daughter had chose to have an abortion and my little precious grand-baby would never have been born.

Lord Jesus Saves

I want to ask this important question and please pray about this. Is having an abortion robbing one the opportunity and hope of eternal life? We know abortion robs the physical birth (born of water), but does abortion rob the second birth of the Spirit. Jesus said in John 3:5 “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit he cannot enter into the kingdom of God. 6 “That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.
On thing is for sure, giving birth to a child offers Hope of Eternal Life.

So Beloved!

~Pro-Life Prayers~

Prayer to End Abortion
Lord God, I thank you today for the gift of my life,
And for the lives of all my brothers and sisters.

I know there is nothing that destroys more life than abortion,
Yet I rejoice that you have conquered death
by the Resurrection of Your Son.

I am ready to do my part in ending abortion.
Today I commit myself
Never to be silent,
Never to be passive,
Never to be forgetful of the unborn.

I commit myself to be active in the Pro-Life movement,
And never to stop defending life
Until all my brothers and sisters are protected,
And our nation once again becomes
A nation with liberty and justice
Not just for some, but for all.

Through Christ our Lord. Amen!

Redeemer in the Womb
Lord Jesus Christ, You took our human nature upon Yourself. You shared our life and death, our childhood and adulthood.

You also shared our time in the womb. While still God, while worshiped and adored by the angels, while Almighty and filling every part of the universe, You dwelt for nine months in the womb of Mary. You were our Redeemer in the womb, our God who was a preborn child.

Lord Jesus, we ask You to bless and protect the children who today are in their mothers’ womb. Save them from the danger of abortion. Give their mothers the grace to sacrifice themselves, in body and soul, for their children. Help all people to recognize in the preborn child a brother, a sister, saved by You, our Redeemer in the womb.

Prayer for the Helpless Unborn
Heavenly Father, in Your love for us, protect us against the wickedness of the devil, protect those helpless little ones to whom You have given the gift of life.

Touch with pity the hearts of those women pregnant in our world today who are not thinking of motherhood.

Help them to see that the child they carry is made in Your image — as well as theirs — made for eternal life.

Dispel their fear and selfishness and give them true womanly hearts to love their babies and give them birth and all the needed care that a mother alone can give.

We ask this through Jesus Christ, Your Son, Our Lord, Who lives and reigns with You and the Holy Spirit, one God, forever and ever. Amen.

Right to Life Prayer
In these troubled times when all our
Morals and values are under attack,
There is one struggle we all must share
For those who cannot fight back.
I speak of the unborn child –
No more oppressed minority can there be.
Why is he denied his one basic right
In America , “the land of the free’?
Some say it’s a matter of free will,
Others say it’s an individual’s choice.
I say that all who care must speak out
For those who have no voice.
The taking of a human life
Brings shame upon all.
The murder of our children
Is a crime we must outlaw.
So if we raise our voices
For the cause in which we strive,
We can prevent this slaughter,
And protect our right to life.
“I have set before you life and death,
Blessing and curse; therefore choose life,
That you and your descendants may live.”

At the time of conception life is formed, we must all pray for a better way to help those who feel they are not able or willing to raise a child.

~This is a better Choice ~

Abortion Alternative Resource List

If you or someone you know is experiencing an unplanned pregnancy, here are some agencies who can help.

Abortion Alternative Alliance

Birthright International

1-(201) 825-7277

Birthchoice San Marco

Birthmothers’ Resources


The Nurturing Network


Most of these organizations operate nation wide, and/or can provide you with resources in your area.

If you have had an abortion and are suffering from the grief caused by this decision, you are not alone. There is help out there for you. Here are some groups who may be able to provide you with the support you need.
Psalm 139
13 For You formed my inward parts;
You wove me in my mother’s womb.
14 I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Wonderful are Your works,
And my soul knows it very well.
15 My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth;
16 Your eyes have seen my unformed substance;
And in Your book were all written
The days that were ordained for me,
When as yet there was not one of them.
17 How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand.
When I awake, I am still with You.

Lord Jesus Saves



Holy Spirit Email (Monday 8-2-2010)

21 Jun

I was so BLUE EYED…


I never thought the father of my child could possibly do all these things to wound me. I knew in my heart that God was calling out to me and asking me over and over, “Would you just turn to me? And have a little faith while your at it.” I decided to place myself around other brothers in Christ. I went to a church service called The Journey for my age group (25-30). I hadn’t heard from Derrek in any form or fashion for 5 days. I was so apprehensive about him and didn’t know where else to turn. This service was about letting go of the things in your life that could lead you to sin. I knew what God was telling me, but I didn’t want it to be so. He has been telling me to let go of Derrek, but it is so hard when you truly love someone with all your heart. I came home that night after service and was checking my email, hoping and praying that he at least wrote me something to let me know he was alive. I didn’t receive anything from Derrek. I was crying and praying to the Lord to just please help me understand. I continued to check my email that next couple of days and on that Sunday I was sitting in front of the computer crying […] Holy Spirit Email (Monday 8-2-2010).


I am sharing my daughter’s amazing story of  how the Holy Spirit moved in her life!

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† Porn is a Serious Problem Even Among Christians!!!

18 Jun
† Porn is a Serious Problem Even Among Christians!!!

The Lord can heal you of it. It is a dirty little secret many Christians are hiding. If any of you have this problem check out these sites and know there is hope. The Lord can heal you! The Internet has magnified this problem. You or someone you know may be too ashamed to admit they have a problem, but know there is help. Don’t be afraid to get help before it destroys your life and the lives of others. Sadly today many young people are getting trapped in this addiction!!!

“You have heard that it was said, ‘YOU SHALL NOT COMMIT ADULTERY’; but I say to you, that everyone who looks on a woman to lust for her has committed adultery with her already in his heart.” Matthew 5:27-28
For out of the heart come evil thoughts, murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false testimony, slander. Matthew 15:19
1 Corinthians 6:18-20 Flee immorality. Every other sin that a man commits is outside the body, but the immoral man sins against his own body. Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own? For you have been bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body.

1 Thessalonians 4:3-8 For this is the will of God, your sanctification; that is, that you abstain from sexual immorality; that each of you know how to possess his own vessel in sanctification and honor, not in lustful passion, like the Gentiles who do not know God; and that no man transgress and defraud his brother in the matter because the Lord is the avenger in all these things, just as we also told you before and solemnly warned you. For God has not called us for the purpose of impurity, but in sanctification. So, he who rejects this is not rejecting man but the God who gives His Holy Spirit to you.

Don’t just sweep the dirt under the rug!

I found these sites and it is a good place to start. † † †
Please don’t wait till it is to late! † † †

Check out these sites!

Luke 11:
33 “No one, after lighting a lamp, puts it away in a cellar nor under a basket, but on the lampstand, so that those who enter may see the light.
34 “The eye is the lamp of your body; when your eye is clear, your whole body also is full of light; but when it is bad, your body also is full of darkness.
35 “Then watch out that the light in you is not darkness.
Remember the Lord does not give one more that one can bear and put on God’s Armour..

1 Corinthians 10:12-13 NIV
12 So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall!
13 No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

Ephesians 6:10-18 NIV
The Armour of God
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.
11 Put on the full Armour of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.
12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
13 Therefore put on the full armour of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.
14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled round your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place,
15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.
16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.
17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.

If any of you are aware of some other good help resources please share them.

God Bless Each of You! LORD JESUS SAVES

I share how I was affected in my own life by porn and sexual abuse!

Finding Comfort After The Loss of A Beloved Pet

17 Jun

~♥ Nothing is Impossible With God ♥~

Hope is where I find Comfort through LOVE..
1 Corinthians 13:7 “LOVE” bears all things,
believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.
It says ALL! So I have this HOPE

ღHope of Eternal Life For Our Beloved Petsღ

Love is the greatest commandment
and overpowers all the damaging negative
teachings that offer no hope.
It says love, hopes and believes ALL things!
With LOVE we are to hope ALL things, that is what the word teaches. As loving Children of God we should NEVER try to destroy that hope.

~♥ My Angel Kitty Baby ♥~
Born March 30, 1989 – Missing May 18, 2008

~The Bible Teaches Us To Have Hope In All Things~
The Lord gave me 19 wonderful years with my precious kitty, Baby. On May 18, 2008 she just vanished without a trace. Being an indoor kitty I could not understand how she would just vanish. I put signs around the neighborhood and called different vets looking for her. The pain was so great and we desired an answer. My oldest son and I both fasted and prayed, crying out to the Lord for an answer. The very next morning an old friend called me, telling me the Lord came to her in a dream and told her to tell me not to worry about my kitty. I knew that was the answer to our prayers, the Lord was letting us know she was in His hands. I felt an immediate comfort. Then the Lord put it in my heart to make a site to give others HOPE. The pain of losing a beloved pet is great and when the Lord heard our cries and answered our prayers the comfort I felt was great and I wanted to share this hope with others.
Baby became a member of our family!
Losing her, I felt like I lost my child.
I know I could have filled a bucket with tears
I have shed over losing her.
Out of Love I have HOPE she will be in Heaven.
I know the Lord has a greater purpose for her
and that is to help others with the pain
of losing their loving companion and show
we do have hope of them having Eternal life.
Some teach there will be no animals in heaven,
but no where in HIS word does it say that.
Love is eternal and our love for our pets will never die.
With LOVE we are to hope ALL things.
As loving Children of God we should NEVER try to destroy that hope.

The Lord said man alone was created “in the image and likeness of God”
Genesis 1:26-27
The word teaches us we must repent of our sins
and accept the Lord as our Savior..

We must be born again..
So how can a pet go to heaven.
They don’t sin, they are not made in the image of God.

So how is it possible.

Luke 18
27 But He said, “The things that are impossible with people
are possible with God.

Mark 11:
22 And Jesus answered saying to them, “Have faith in God.
23 “Truly I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be taken up
and cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart,
but believes that what he says is going to happen,
it will be granted him.

24 “Therefore I say to you, all things for which you pray and ask,
believe that you have received them, and they will be granted you.

I believe it has to do with love.
I believe since animals can’t sin or receive the Lord it
is going to be through the Love of the Lord’s Children and the Lord’s love for us.
Understanding what love is and how the word describes it, shows us HIS heart!
Man is made in the image of God and we are over the animals.
So I believe the way for an animal to go to heaven is through the
Love of a Child of God and HIS love of us.

Job 12:7
“But now ask the beasts, and let them teach you;
And the birds of the heavens, and let them tell you.

If Solomon, the wisest man who ever lived didn’t know 100% if animals go to heaven or not, then I can’t see how anyone today can say they will NOT be there! I choose to have HOPE and Believe!
Solomon Asked this question?
Ecclesiastes 3:21 Who knoweth the spirit of man, whether it goeth upward, and the spirit of the beast, whether it goeth downward to the earth?

1 Corinthians 2 :
9 But as it is written: “Eye has not seen, nor ear heard,
Nor have entered into the heart of man.
The things which God has prepared for those who love Him.”

If you know anyone grieving over the loss of an animal or beloved pet please share the Lord’s comforting words Of  HOPE.

May God Bless Each and Everyone of You!

Lord Jesus Saves

Learning Forgiveness In My Own Life

24 May

I am sharing my own personal story in HOPE of helping others.  Learning forgiveness of others to be forgiven!

      I asked the Lord to forgive me, it took a little time but the Lord reassured me of his forgiveness. I realized I wouldn’t be forgiven until I was able to forgive those who hurt me. The forgiveness started with my father for all the years of sexual abuse. I realized there was a connection between the abuse of my father and my first failed marriage. I married young at the age of 19, it was only 3 years after I had been engulfed with a lifetime of sexual abuse which involved my grandmother and my mother. He was able to control all of us, having us do his will. He took away my innocence while warping my mind, resulting in my own insecurity. We lived in a house of darkness literally and spiritually, he was a nudist. I remember the shades always down when he was home. We all had to participate. Many of our family vacations involved going to nudist colonies which included my mother, my grandma (my mother’s mother), and me. This was his choice, we were just all victims. I loved my grandmother very much but she was a victim just like me, so I never blamed her. She died when I was ten. My mother ended up an alcoholic. I remember him beating her, her crying, and her with a black eye. My mother took her pain out on me and would slap me across the face or pinch my mouth. I recall my father becoming enraged over a lost porn magazine, at first he came after me, pulling back his fist as to hit me but stopped. I was so scared that day, then he turned his rage on my mother. I remember my father sexually molesting my friend and I, she was 9 and I was 10 years old. He had a way of making it into a game. I remember when my dad would go to X-rated stores to buy his magazines, he would leave my mother and I in the car for hours at a time. Then when I was 11 years old, my mother and my grandfather (my father’s father) ran off together which lead to my parent’s divorce. That relationship failed between my mother and grandfather, my mother had no money so my dad was able to take even greater advantage of her and his sex acts became even more perverted by including me. At that time I was living with my Maw Maw (my father’s mother) and the neighbors started taking me to church where I accepted the Lord and was baptized. My father then remarried when I was 13 years old and there was more abuse. My stepmother would always say things to put fear in me. She told me how she and her older daughter murdered her first husband and how they got away with it by claiming self-defense, along with other stories to add more fear in me. Every time she would leave the house my father would come for me for his pleasure. Seriously I had come to the point, I wanted to die. For the first time, I finally told my secret to a friend that lived a few houses down the street named Mary. The Lord intervened when Mary told her friend Sharon about me. Sharon didn’t know me but told her parents about a girl who was being abused.
I finally told my father I was going to tell and everything hit the fan. As I spoke of the unspeakable, I just wanted to run away, I remember my whole body trembling and shaking. I asked if I could go live with my mother and they said go ahead, but that didn’t work because she was always drunk and the man she was married to threatened to beat me with a big chain. By this time I had Sharon’s parent’s phone number who offered me help and they took me into their home. They got me legal help and they became my foster parents. I lived with them for about 2 1/2 years and there I learned more about the Lord. I was rescued for a time, but when I finished school I was on my own and the sins of the world engulfed me. I was insecure and I met someone who said they loved me and wanted to get married. But soon after we married I felt I couldn’t trust him. I was so jealous of every girl and child. One day I went to visit a friend out of town and I planned to stay the night but I missed him so much that I came home. He wasn’t there and I waited by the window late into the night. When he finally got home I asked him where he had gone, it turned out he went to an x-rated store to buy a x-rated movie. I was so angry. Well, a few weeks later I noticed the trash had been taken out. I knew that wasn’t like my husband to do that without me saying something, so I went out and dug into the trash. There I found x-rated magazines that he had been looking at after he knew how I was so against it. He knew about all the abuse I had endured as a child and the porn my father was into. What I am getting at is my state of mind was so messed up, I couldn’t handle being with someone that reminded me of my Dad. I wanted to separate but during the separation period, he found someone else and wanted a divorce. Once my marriage was over my life was filled with sin, drinking, sex, and drugs and I was living my darkest hours. I was alone living in this dark cloud, the Lord seemed miles away. I tried to take my own life by taking a bottle of the remaining Valium I had, only I found myself still alive the next day. I knew something needed to change, I felt so tired. I prayed and asked the Lord for a family and soon after that, I met my husband-to-be. The husband I have now is nothing like my father. We have been together 28 years and he is a wonderful husband and father. A few years ago I decided I wanted to go back home and truly get connected to the Lord. I was on fire and so happy. I called my foster father and went to visit him after over 30 years and let him know how much I loved all they had done for me. I saw my foster sister but my foster mother had already passed away. A few months later my foster father passed away from cancer. I knew the Lord let me have that chance to tell him how much I appreciated them and thanked him for all they did for me. But going back to church turned out to be so disappointing for me. I never realized I would not be accepted as a member of the body. I tried to explain the situation but it didn’t matter. It was firm that I could not be a member unless I divorced my husband because they said I was living in adultery. I couldn’t believe the coldness, where was forgiveness. I was so troubled by it. It ate at me and I prayed for answers. Then on May 6, 2006 my daughter’s boyfriend committed suicide and that was the worst pain I ever felt. I cried out to the Lord like never before. It broke my heart and the pain I felt ran through my whole body.

     I knew God had put this young man in my life for a reason. I cried and prayed, asking God what can I do? I had never been on MySpace before and yet God lead me to it. I shortly realized he wanted me to make a Tribute to Sammy. In the beginning, I felt God was using the site to aid in comforting Sammy’s loved ones. But soon afterward, I started seeing the site go into a transformation. No longer was it just for the loved ones, but for those hurting for various reasons. It was becoming one of God’s tools to give aid and comfort through the word of God. The church shut the door on me but the Lord opened another door for me to serve him.

     Going back to my father. I asked the Lord for forgiveness. I started praying for a heart pleasing to him and his spiritual wisdom. I prayed for mercy, and as time went on I started having a change of heart. I stopped being angry with my father. I found myself praying for him and asking the Lord to have mercy on him. All the terrible feelings I once had vanished. I felt the Lord’s love like never before and I knew I was forgiven for all my past sins. I hold no guilt because I have learned in order to be forgiven by the Lord we must forgive those who hurt us. My father never came to me and asked me to forgive him. I never set eyes on him after 1972, I later heard he died in a car crash at the age of 66. No longer would there be a chance for him to come and ask me for forgiveness, yet I knew the Lord was telling me I needed to forgive. This is a principle taught in the word forgive others to be forgiven.

For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.  But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. Matthew 6:14-15

My mother died at the age of 47 of psoriasis of the liver and never got to see any of her grandchildren. I can pray with no animosity and with a sincere love for all those who hurt me. In Dec 2007 the Lord put it in my heart to find my stepmother and forgive her as well. It had been 35 years since I had seen her. I didn’t even know if she was still alive but I figured she must be since the Holy Spirit was putting this in my heart. I knew if she was alive, she would be 76 years old. I did a people search for her and found where she had last lived in 2005 so I decided to take a drive and see if I could find her. I located my stepsister, she had no idea who I was, but I knew it was her. I asked her where my stepmother was and she told me she was in ICU, she told me she had had a heart attack the day before Thanksgiving. I told my stepsister the Lord had put it in my heart to see my stepmother and let her know I had forgiven her and my father for all that happened to me when I was a teen. The Lord knew the perfect timing for me to go so I wouldn’t say too much, I left her an audio bible and player for my stepmother. Then I went to the hospital and was able to visit with my stepmother for a few minutes. I let her know the Lord loves her and that I had forgiven her. My stepmother died 3 years later in 2010 at the age of 79. I still have the scars and the memories, but my wounds have healed. One thing I have learned is not to hide our scars but use them to share with others and show the hope we have when we have the Lord to help us deal with the pain and heal our wounds. Our scars are our testimonies.
The Lord can turn anything into a blessing if we trust him!
And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28
If we want to be forgiven we must forgive others. A good way to start is by praying and asking the Lord to give you a heart that is pleasing to HIM. As one’s heart changes and starts filling up with Love, there is No room for hate. Forgiveness becomes easier and easier. I pray all those who read this will be blessed.
~May the Grace of God be with Each and Everyone of You~
Lord Jesus Saves

~♥ My Foster Parents and I ♥~ (1976)

These are my wonderful foster parents who took me in when I was 16 years old. This picture was taken around (1976) when I was 20 years old. The Lord planted me in the Church of Christ as a teen and I believe it was for HIS purpose!  Sadly both of my foster parents have passed away! My foster mother had diabetes and it took her life. My foster father died of cancer in 2005 but the Lord blessed me by letting me see him a few months before cancer took him. I was able to tell him and my foster sister how much I love them and all they did for me! What a great blessing it was to see them after all those years!!!  One added note!! I was re-baptized at the age of 17 years old, the teaching in the Church said my first Baptism done in the Baptist church was invalid. But on Sept 22, 2007 the Holy Spirit let me know I was the Lord’s Child at 11 years old, he knew I was a child hurting and accepted me. I Love how the Holy Spirit opens our eyes to HIS truth.

My foster sister and her husband (COC preacher), my foster mother, and me (1974/1975).

A brief history!!! There was a girl that lived down the street from me and I confronted her about some of the things going on in my life. She told Sharon who I did not know at the time. Sharon told her parents about me and their hearts went out to me. They wanted to help me get out of all the abuse. They helped me by taking me into their home and getting me legal help. They got child welfare involved and they got custody of me from the ages of 16-18 years of age. They were very loving and I learned more about the Lord living there. Sadly because of legalism many of those in the conservative Church of Christ now consider me a fallen Child of God. Things have changed, the Holy Spirit has helped me see things in a new Light! After Sammy’s suicide (my daughter’s boyfriend) the Holy Spirit started moving in my life and started opening my eyes to things I never knew before the age of 50 years old. I give the Lord all the Glory!


~♥ My Grandma and I ♥~ around 1964!

This is my grandmother (my mother’s mother) and I. She lived with us from my birth till she died on June 4, 1966. I was 10 years old and loved her so much! She was a Christian and I believe she must have taught me about the Lord. She was a member of the Pine Forest Baptist Church in Vidor.  After her death, I was so very sad but one night I had a beautiful dream and I remember that dream like it was yesterday. I dreamed I received a present. It was a long box wrapped with a big bow. I opened the box and it was my grandma. I was so happy and I remember exactly what was said. I asked her, “Grandma, what is it like in heaven?” And this is what she said, “Francine, I can’t tell you, you are going to have to find out for yourself.” What a wonderful dream, I was only 10 years old. That dream was a gift from God. What was the chance that I would ask such a question and that dream would never be forgotten? Could it well be that the Lord knew I would use it one day to glorify him? Less than a year later after she passed away I accepted the Lord and was baptized. I know that the Lord does give us those special dreams and they are for today!  Acts 2:17-18 ‘AND IT SHALL BE IN THE LAST DAYS,’ God says ‘THAT I WILL POUR FORTH OF MY SPIRIT ON ALL MANKIND; AND YOUR SONS AND YOUR DAUGHTERS SHALL PROPHESY, AND YOUR YOUNG MEN SHALL SEE VISIONS, AND YOUR OLD MEN SHALL DREAM DREAMS;  EVEN ON MY BONDSLAVES, BOTH MEN AND WOMEN, I WILL IN THOSE DAYS POUR FORTH OF MY SPIRIT And they shall prophesy.

This is South Park Baptist Church.

I was baptized there when I was 11 years old, on November 19, 1967. It looks the same as how I remember it 44 years ago. What is ironic when I was 6-9 years old I lived two houses away from that church yet I had never been in it. The house we were renting was bought by the Church and destroyed to build a bigger parking area. I remember that house as a house of darkness. Always dark because the shades were down. It was there in that house where the molesting got really bad! My father was molesting both my grandma and me. It is no wonder the Lord used my Grandma in the dream to call me to him. It is amazing that very house was destroyed by the Church where I found the Lord and accepted Jesus into my heart.

As a child hurting, I know the Lord used a dream to help comfort me and bring me to Him!

My Dream as a child was a Gift from GOD!

† Porn is a Serious Problem Even Among Christians. If you or someone you know is suffering from this addiction know there is Help!!!


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